I have to buy any thing. I have to eat and drink a lot. I have to read, to lose myself in the Net. I have to go to pubs, to go to music concerts, to theatres, to cinemas… I have to keep my TV on all the time. I have to run without a place to reach. I cannot be quiet. If so I start to think and that is unbearable for me. During nights like this morning I have the clear vision of loneliness. I am alone.